The mega chemo has begun

Gary had his first round of Bortizemib and completed that a week ago.  Yesterday was the mega day for chemo.  He was at NIH all day got a lovely cocktail of meds in his IV to include taking some home so it would be infused over a 24 hour period.  He has a pump and an IV bag and it goes in his arm through a PICC line.  He has to go back every day and get the bag changed out.  That goes on until Tuesday and then they give him a mega dose of something (can't remember the name now) and it is the one that could make him feel really crappy.  So far, he is doing fine with no side effects.  He was a bit nauseated on the way home from chemo yesterday, but it was probably my driving!  It was rush hour and there was a lot of starting and stopping.  That was it for side effects.  Oh, and he is on a whopping dose of prednisone.  140 mg twice a day for 5 days!  Every 3 weeks, he will get this round of stuff....  Hair should be falling out in a couple of weeks.

I hate this for him... I hate this for him... I hate this for him.

Chemo begins

Am I relieved or am I scared out of my mind?  Today starts the first round of chemo for Gary and I don't know how to feel.  Right now I am feeling a quite numb about it all. 

I hardly slept last night thinking about it and finally got up at 3:45 and got in the shower.  Why stay in bed when my mind just won't shut off? 

We have had a great weekend and a great distraction.  Our dear friends from Mass.  came to visit us.  It has been a huge distraction and for that I am grateful.  We had a Halloween party and friends came over to include our son, his wife and baby.  It was excellent!  Gary's friend helped him in the basement, getting it framed so we can finally get walls up.  That is huge.

We will leave for the hospital in about an hour.